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Name: Rebeckah/Becky
Birthday: 3/28/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: i like movies, love to read, learn. hanging out with the best man on campus, God is top on the list. my roomies, friends, and shocking as it might be i even like working. :-0 
Expertise: being who i am, and being striving to be who God made me to be a woman of God. i really have no expertise. Just going through this world and looking for my place.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
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AIM:  foreversaint85
Member Since:
12/15/2003
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| So lately i have been thinking a lot about life. I know it might be weird, but i got done not to long ago reading the Twilight Saga. And they are FANTASTIC books. I am somewhat obsessed with them you might say. I know it is not good to be obsessed. However i was researching the book and the movie. Trying to figure out how Stephanie Meyer came up with such a great book series. Well i found that and she started just writing for her from a dream she had. She was exploring the different scenes in the dream and trying to find answers for herself. I found this quite amazing that such a wonderful story came out of a dream. Also in my searching i wanted to better understand Robert Pattinson, the person who plays Edward for those of you who do not know. When i watch movies i like to watch the special features. While this movie did not have as many special features as i would like, it did have commentary from The director, Kristen Stewart and Rob. While i was watching the movie with the commentary on i noticed that Rob was not taking the serious parts seriously. He was making jokes about them. Lighten the mood. This fact bugged me because as a person who seemed to do really good in the part he wasn't "into" it. Anyways as i was trying to figure out if i like him as a person it occurred to me that Rob is very very honest person. I also noticed that he doesn't like watching himself on tv, or at least it seems that way to me that is why he is uncomfortable with watching the movie.
So his demeanor made me curious, so i researched his interviews and one from a press jaunet impressed me. He was so honest with all the questions even with the cast there with him, or at least it seemed that way because of the different people talking. Anyways someone asked him about his hesitation with the movie role and his answer was impressive. He might have over thought it but he took into account the fact that he was in Harry Potter and that was a book turned into a movie, and that worried him that he would be typecasted as such. So he was wary of this role. He didn't want to do anything big for a while. Then when he actually auditioned and saw how serious that Kristen was and that this could work he decided to go into it.
That is what impressed me so much. He went into this role that he anaylized from every angle. I even imagined that he read the books to get the character down. He tried to work out so that he would look muscular, which apparently made people worry about him. But he delved himself into the role. So much so that in many of the interviews that i read and listened to the interviewer asked about the rumor that he proposed to Kristen Stewart. he doesn't remember doing that, however he said that he probably did it because of the role. He was so into Edward that was who he was. He said it took him a couple of months to get out of that and become him again. The way that he is with movies or so it seems that he is like reminds me of Heath Ledger, and Johnny Depp. I just hope that he will not be like Heath and take pills. I hope that he has a long wonderful career like Johnny. I hope that he stays independent doing jobs that he likes and wants to do. I think that i am a Robert Pattinson fan, not because he is "Edward" but because whom he seems to be as a person. I now feel bad for all the bad press he is getting and i hope that it doesn't let that get him down. Oh btw he is an amazing musician.
Well i said i was thinking about life. How does Twilight relate to life. Well it does because how many times do we, or at least do i think about ever aspect of a decision before doing it? and if i were to do that more often then that would probably not want to make me sway because i thought of every possible outcome and i still made it. How rewarding would that be to make a decision and know that it is the right one because of how much you thought of it.
How as Christians; how much of an impact that would make. To not be so quick, but to pause and think, and yes sometimes pray about things. However i do have to say that sometimes there are times where you know it is the right decision as soon as it is presented and you know that is where God wants you to go.
That is something i struggle with. Where does God what me to go. And when is the right time to pause and pray about something and when is the right time to just go ahead and do it? I guess that is a personal call. I am a strong believer in that even though there are two roads for everyone to choose and God does want you to choose a specific road. That even though we might not choose the road that he wants he make it the right one in the end. I have done this many times i think. I think i choose the rougher road then necessary. And that road was filled with hardache and trials. I have a feeling that if i went down the road that God wanted then it wouldn't have been so bad. But that is why God gave us free will. He wants us to chooose and in the end hopefully we learn the lesson and go the road that he wants.
I think i have been learning this lesson a lot lately. What road does God want me to go on for my future? I am not sure, however one thing i am sure of is that i am going to make sure it is the right one. I truly believe that God does not want us to suffer and he tries to provide us ways so that we won't. Sometimes though we get in the way of that and like i said before choose a different path. God is a great amazing awesome God. He cares deeply about us and wants the best for us. Sometimes we loose sight of that. i know i have.
i am coming back to the heart of worship and it is all about God. Worship is not just something you do at church during the time that the band is up there singing. You worship God with your life. EVERYTHING that you do. Whether it is walking down the street, driving your car, going out to eat, working, playing with kids, talking to people. Everything that we do every minute of every day can be an act of worship to God.
I know that i have lost sight of this as well. However this is something i am realearning. While at work i believe that i am surronded by nonchristians i think that i witness everyday. Not so much with words, but with how i am. I am a very happy person and i thank God for that.
Wow i have not written in a LONG time and here i go writing a short story. haha
God is so very good no matter what we are going through. He is our God who cares what we are going through and with him we can get through it.
I have been thinking about a story that i heard an evangelist or a preacher tell. I am not sure who told it, however it is very fasicnating.
So here it is:
The preacher was in Texas or some place like that. He was there for a while when all of a sudden God told him to go to this field to preach every Thursday at 5. So he went to the feild not knowing what to expect. When he got there all he saw was cows. Not a person in sight. He was thinking God what do you have me doing here. However he listened and preached there. From my recollection he did this for like 5 months. He had not seen a single person, however there was a cow that came and heard him preach. His only congregation. Anyways God released him and he went along his way. About 2 years later he was in another part of Texas and there was a gentleman that approched him and said that he reconized him. The preacher did not reconize this man. Anyways this gentleman told him a story. He said that he was out walking around in the woods one day when he heard someone talking. He saw the guy just talking to no one, and he listened. This guy was talking about God. The gentleman was intrigued and decided to stay and listen a little back in the woods. He did this for the full 5 months that the preacher was there and ended up getting saved. I think i remember the preacher saying that this gentleman went out and led quite a few other people to Christ.
The reason that i mention this story is because while God might have us doing something that we might not know the outcome of, he has it happening for a purpose. This preacher was doing this for 5 months for no apparent reasoin, however a couple years down the road he hears the reason.
God help me do what you want me to do even though the whole picture may not be clear. As long as i am in your will i know that all will work out.
So if you have read all the way down to here congrats!!! this is the longest blog i have ever written.
Well i hope that you all have a good nite!!!
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| Right now my life is a little stressful. I am taking a lot more credits than i ever had, working way less and it is hard. As many of you know i am getting married this coming year. There is a lot of money that is going to get spent, however i don't have the money for the wedding. Also i need to get a car, and with that Car insurance, and i don't have the money for that either, and the crap thing is that in order to get a better paying job i need a car. yet i don't have money for a car, and i just made the most expensive purchase in my life thus far with buying my wedding gown and other acessories. I found a really nice car for 2500 and that is a great however i don't have the money for it. I know i can do monthly payments on it that is all fine and good. however i don't know if i will have the money to make monthly payments on a car, my wedding gown, and do the car insurance. I am not rich by no means. I need to work more hours, however if i do i am afraid that my schoolwork is going to suffer and i don't want that to happen. Right now i just don't know what to do. I just want to give up on it sometimes. Yet i know i can't i need to grow up. I am quite grown up already, and i am still working on little things. Yet it seems kind of crazy that life is so hard. Just thinking about it makes my head spin. I have to get the wedding stuff done, find an internship for next semester (hopefully paid), get a car, and all the fun stuff that goes with that. Then once adam and i get married we have to have money for our apt, for utility bills, for cars, food, clothes, furniture. Life right now is crazy and i am in such a transition phase. I know one thing i want to do when i have kids is that i want to show them how to manage little things on their own so that when they get out there in that big bad world it does not give them a big blow. Just pray for me with everything that all gets figured out, and that God provides. i am trusting in him, and even though this may seem small to some people it is HUGE to me and i know that GOD cares about all things dealing with his children. Thank you so much God Bless you all. | | |
| i just want to express my thanks to those who have prayed for adams mom. God is still working miracles. My last post was about how adams mom has/d an infection. Well i am happy to report that while the infection is still there, or at least i believe it is. She is at home. That is a huge praise because she spent 14 days in the hospital. and for her to be out this soon is nothing short of miraclious. However she still needs pray for her full recovery of this issue. Again a million thanks. | | |
| i have found out some more news about adams mom. Please please please keep praying for her. I can't not stress the praying part enough.
On Sunday Adam and i went to go visit his mom, and upon arriving we found out that she has an infection on her op site. Today they reopened her back up to see if they could get rid of the infection. Tonite she called his father and told him that the infection is spreading elsewhere on the op site.
This is very critical because she recieved operation on her stomach region. All the way from her chest region, to the bottom of her stomach.
Please pray for the family. For her husband (John) for Adam and his sister (Jessica). Also if you would not mind throwing up a couple prayers for me with helping out adam and his family during this time of need. Thank you all so very very much for your prayers. It is greatly appreciated. | | |
| i am just a little annoyed with people right now. It seems that when someone posts something stupid like tons of people comment on the blog, either on this, myspace, facebook. you know. And yet when someone posts something serious where they think that people are going to say something they don't. That is how i feel right now. My last posts on any of the above mentioned blogs forums have been about my sisters death. I have recieved some comments, and it isn't necessarily about me. It is about the children. My last blog i wrote how people can help, yet it seems like it is a joke to them. I understand that people are busy and not all people comment on things that they read. I do the same thing. However right now at this point in time it is like on one is even reading it. Or if they do it is just something they forget about. I am not trying to be mean by no means. i just want to know that someone out there is going to help contribute to the kids. I have been praying for this the whole time. I want the kids to have a good life. I am just ranting right now about my feelings, also i don't want someone to be guilted into giving either that would be worse. I just seriously ask that those who read this would pray about giving to this, if you dont feel like you can give i ask that you would at least pass the word along so that this gets around. Again i stress this is not about me it is about the kids. All i want is for the word to be passed in Churches, youth groups some avenue like that. If i have offended anyone i am sorry. i don't mean to offend. and i know that there are a lot of people out there that care for me and what is up in my life. and i thank them for that. | | |
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